The narrator Offred begins the chapter by discussing her story, bringing focus on the narration itself. She is aware of an audience (though she doesn’t know who that will be, exactly, or if anyone at all—but much will be revealed in the Historical Notes at the end), and so breaks the fourth wall somewhat again. She tells the reader that she wishes it could be a traditional story with a better structure and more character insight. She wishes it could be about a traditional subject like love. She wishes it could show herself in a better light. This awareness of her narration perhaps, restores a bit of reliability for the reader. We think that if she were extremely unreliable then she would have made it more of a traditional story for the reader’s entertainment. She apologizes for the amount of trivial information (colors, flowers, mirrors, gossip?), but she had much time to spare and think. She had to endure “time heavy as fried food or thick fog” (267), and so filled it with these bits of information. Yet, these slow and heavy...
Chapter 41
Part XIV: Salvaging
Chapter Summary
In a self-reflective passage, Offred apologizes to her future listener (possibly Luke) for the fragmented, painful nature of her story and confesses to frequent secret meetings with Nick that have become more than just attempts at conception. Though Ofglen had urged her to gather intelligence from the Commander, Offred admits she's lost interest in resistance and escape, instead finding dangerous comfort in her relationship with Nick - sharing everything except memories of Luke - while knowing this contentment in their "cave" puts them both at risk.